Thank you so much Bethany, I'm very flattered that you think my posts radiate sunshine. Thank you.
Now I have to pass this along to 5 deserving blogs that radiate happiness and make me smile. So here goes:
Mariah: Who has Resident Expert days that are just amazing, also she's spunky and I admire her for that.
Frankie: Who is not afraid to make ridiculous deals with the universe to attain her agented/published goal. I would never (as of right now) have the guts to do anything like that so props Frankie for being so brave.
Shannon: Who is fearless because she and Frankie (see above) are in the midst of an all out blog war, and that's scary. Like I said Frankie is basically fearless, which means Shannon you've got guts out the wazoo. I envy you.
K.M.: Who manages to balance two kids, a job and at one point broken bones, and write all at the same time. I would love that balance and coordination.
Karen: Who believes in talking to teens not down to them *bows in thanks*, has an awesome blog design and is just cool.
Of course there are lots of other blogs that I adore but there was a limit. So you guys thank you so much for having awesome blogs and I hope you pass this award around.
Now to the perspective bit. I've been trying to figure out a balance between school and writing, up until this year I didn't need to find one because it was just there. But then suddenly this year, college apps, SATs, job apps, and work just seemed to *WHAM* right in my face. So balance is being searched for, I've set aside my hour, agreed upon by my parents, the one hour a day left to just me, no chores, no homework, no work, just writing. That and chemistry and history have been a great place to pen extra words.
So I guess I'm looking for perspective, writing has always been my everything. Well for the most part, because the time before writing was small and not anything I like to dwell on. And by everything I mean it has taken a precedent over my social life and even at times (though I know it was wrong) my academic career as well.
Here's the thing it's all I ever wanted to do, write I mean, and this is one of those times in my life where I'm supposed to be focusing on my future. I've been asked to pick a major already, I'm not even in college yet and they already want me declaring my major. English, obviously. But that's not the point, I don't really have a definitive plan yet, I don't know what it is I want to do other than write. I don't even know what I want for dinner most days let alone what college I want to go to.
I just want to know if any of you have some advice, or perspective, on this predicament because I'm dreading all of this and that is never the way to enter into something. Let alone something that is going to effect the rest of my life. So my wiser, and slightly older writer friends, any advice? I'm going crazy here and it just feels so ick. My parents are on my case about this and I have no idea what to do.
I'm thinking that someone who isn't me will be able to look at this from a different viewpoint and give me insight into this whole thing.