Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Award and Perspective?

So Bethany gave me the Sunshine Award!!

Thank you so much Bethany, I'm very flattered that you think my posts radiate sunshine. Thank you.

Now I have to pass this along to 5 deserving blogs that radiate happiness and make me smile. So here goes:

Mariah: Who has Resident Expert days that are just amazing, also she's spunky and I admire her for that.

Frankie: Who is not afraid to make ridiculous deals with the universe to attain her agented/published goal. I would never (as of right now) have the guts to do anything like that so props Frankie for being so brave.

Shannon: Who is fearless because she and Frankie (see above) are in the midst of an all out blog war, and that's scary. Like I said Frankie is basically fearless, which means Shannon you've got guts out the wazoo. I envy you.

K.M.: Who manages to balance two kids, a job and at one point broken bones, and write all at the same time. I would love that balance and coordination.

Karen: Who believes in talking to teens not down to them *bows in thanks*, has an awesome blog design and is just cool.

Of course there are lots of other blogs that I adore but there was a limit. So you guys thank you so much for having awesome blogs and I hope you pass this award around.

Now to the perspective bit. I've been trying to figure out a balance between school and writing, up until this year I didn't need to find one because it was just there. But then suddenly this year, college apps, SATs, job apps, and work just seemed to *WHAM* right in my face. So balance is being searched for, I've set aside my hour, agreed upon by my parents, the one hour a day left to just me, no chores, no homework, no work, just writing. That and chemistry and history have been a great place to pen extra words.

So I guess I'm looking for perspective, writing has always been my everything. Well for the most part, because the time before writing was small and not anything I like to dwell on. And by everything I mean it has taken a precedent over my social life and even at times (though I know it was wrong) my academic career as well.

Here's the thing it's all I ever wanted to do, write I mean, and this is one of those times in my life where I'm supposed to be focusing on my future. I've been asked to pick a major already, I'm not even in college yet and they already want me declaring my major. English, obviously. But that's not the point, I don't really have a definitive plan yet, I don't know what it is I want to do other than write. I don't even know what I want for dinner most days let alone what college I want to go to.

I just want to know if any of you have some advice, or perspective, on this predicament because I'm dreading all of this and that is never the way to enter into something. Let alone something that is going to effect the rest of my life. So my wiser, and slightly older writer friends, any advice? I'm going crazy here and it just feels so ick. My parents are on my case about this and I have no idea what to do.

I'm thinking that someone who isn't me will be able to look at this from a different viewpoint and give me insight into this whole thing.

7 comments:

Frankie Diane Mallis said...

Awww thanks, Hayley!!!

Karen Amanda Hooper said...

I had the same problem. All I can say is follow your heart. Wherever that may lead. It's hard when parents are pressuring you to make such huge decisions, but in the end you have to go with what you think will make you most happy. If you end up somewhere that doesn't feel "right" or beneficial in some way, you can always reevaluate and work out a new game plan.

Thank you for the award! :)

Mariah Irvin said...

You think I'm spunky? *sniff* *tear* Thanks!

Wow, I feel like I'm looking at myself a year ago when I read this post. I honestly don't miss SATs, college applications, or any of that other business. It's great your parents have agreed to give you time to write- my writing took a back seat to everything else for a while.

Like you, all I knew that I wanted to do was write. That's been my goal since about the fourth grade- to get a job where I can write. Right now, I'm majoring in journalism and I absolutely love it. Sure, there are moments when I have panic attacks and wonder what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, so I write to calm down... and then I remember why I want to write.

Hang in there :) Ask for help whenever you need it!

Shannon O'Donnell said...

Majors can be easily changed. Go ahead and declare English as a major. If you change your mind or want to add a teaching major or Journalism or whatever... you can change it later. That way everyone is happy that you've "declared" but you don't feel trapped. :-)

K. M. Walton said...

Thanks so very much for my award, Hayley. I'm honored.

As far as advice, I agree with Shannon, declare your major but don't sweat it if you want to change at some point. I started college as a business major and then changed to education. Go figure.

Also, journalism is heavy in writing and seems to prepare most who graduate with that major on a clear path to writing as a career. Just a thought.

Kristi Faith said...

Hayley, Yup, I agree with Shannon. And not to deceive anyone, but to lift that ball of weight from the middle of your brain. I changed my major three times in college...then I didn't finish. Go figure. (Though changing my major is not why I didn't finish-it was some other lame excuse)

So, anywhoo-you might not be rich, but you'll find happiness when you work passionately at what you love. With happiness, comes success. IMO

Hayley said...

Frankie- You are very welcome!

Karen- Thank you for the advice, and you are very welcome!

Mariah- Yes I think you are very spunky, who wouldn't? I'm making it through, thank you for the advice, and it feels really good to know that I can ask for help whenever I need it. ^-^

Shannon- Hehe that's what I was thinking, just declare and change, but certian colleges don't like it when you play jump around, so I want to at least be a little sure even though I may change it later. And thank you ^-^

K.M.- Thank you, I really appreciate it, and I have actually been considering journalisim.

Kristi- It seems everyone has been agreeing with Shannon, hehe, and that is all I want really happiness so I'm going to follow my heart where ever it may lead.