Saturday, March 13, 2010

Fried Brains....And A Secret Letdown....

SATs have fried my brain. I'm so exhausted.

However they weren't half as hard as I thought they were going to be...I think I should have omitted way more questions than I did...

I'm like curl up in a ball and sleep for a week tired, but I guess that's what happens when you wake up at FOUR AM even though you don't have to be up for another two hours but you can't fall back to sleep. And then you have to test for over three hours.

So in my last post, for number 4 I believe said "I have a secret about school...I can't stand it" this was slightly misinterpreted as I had a secret I really wanted to tell. I just meant it as the secret is though I put on a fun face for family and friends I can't stand school. So because I mislead lots of you, I'm really really sorry, I decided to post about secret I have relating to school...ready? You are warned, I'm sorry if this is a letdown.

I'm not so sure I want to go to college, this is a big one. My entire life college has been in the plans, I know I have to go but I'm not sure I want to. I also know that if I take a year off though I may never go back.

I got a chance to change middle schools because we had a new one built in our town. My bestie(Zippy) was going, and it was a smaller environment something that would have really helped me. And I didn't go. I sometimes regret this decision and sometimes not, if I hadn't I wouldn't have met my other besties (Sashi, and FrenchFrey) but if I had I would have had a better education.

Scandal alert! One of my teachers(well not mine but one of my friends) got fired(or quit depends who you hear the rumor from) because of this stupid senior prank thing, and I think(based on what I know and rumor) that they were just looking for someone to blame and she was a scapegoat because it would look bad to expel five seniors in the second semester of school. So these guys who vandalized our library, were suspended for three days and aren't allowed to participate in senior activities. They're the kind of kids who don't care about the kind of stuff their now banned from. So the punishment isn't even that big a deal. I just think they wanted to blame the teacher, she didn't know what they were going to do. Most of the rumors I heard substantiate that they took the keys from her, and didn't give them back. Yeah she was wrong to put her trust in those kids but everyone makes mistakes like that sometimes.

I haven't done a shred of homework at home, like real sit down and work for a couple hours work, for my entire high school career. Projects are obviously a different story. My younger sister works harder than I do.

And that's really it, not very scrumptious as far as secrets go. You know what I'll try to think of better ones for a post later on. Maybe if you guys have secret spurring questions I may think of more...sorry.

But anyhow my brain is fried so I'm going out for pizza and then I'm going to sleep until like noon tomorrow.


chasing empty pavements said...

I battled with the college thing as well. I'm not gonna lie and tell you it's better than High School or even that I think its worth it, because honestly, I'm not sure it is. What I can tell you though, is more than the "education" you're getting at college, you're really finding yourself. I don't think I could have discovered the things about myself if I hadn't gone away and gone to college. I think colleg is imperative in realizing who you are and who you want to be. I hope this makes you feel a tiny bit better!

giddymomof6 said...

Not going to college has always been one of my biggest regrets. I would've LOVED it. I know it. So if you have the opportunity--go--at least for one semester, just see what there is to see and enjoy yourself.

Crazy story about the teacher!!


K. M. Walton said...

I remember feeling overwhelmed about going to college. Now that I'm older I've concluded that everything depends on your outlook and your set up. If you tell yourself you're going to hate it, well, you probably will. If you tell yourself it will be the experience of a lifetime, well, it just might be.

College is where I grew up, learned how to fend for myself, broke free from my fears, met my husband, discovered real life consequences, made the friends I still have today and had the experience of a lifetime...because I set it up that way.

Even though I don't "know" you, I say go for it 100%.

Hayley said...

Chasing- Thanks for the honesty,and it does make me feel better. :)

Jenni- I've always planned on going, and I do want to make the best of it I guess I'm still undicided....I'm sorry you didn't get to go, and I will try to make the best of it whereever I go. ^_^

K.M.- I've always thought it was going to be easier to make a decision and it's not, which is why I'm so unsure. And you know me, not personally, not by my face, but you know about my writing, and therefore you know me. I will set it up to be fun, I just have to get the gumption up to get there. Thank you K.M. ^-^